"What have I done?"
There's been so much of this coming up in my client sessions lately, that I had to speak to it as the week starts. Perhaps awareness of this pattern will support you in some way.
When we face the edge of our negative habits, even meeting ourselves in the thick of our pattern, our addiction, our limiting stories... the impulse is to hide it to beat ourselves up about it, to make deals and shove it deeper and deeper from view. Disgust emerges far too often and we want to stay dissociated from it.
See, those addictions have unconscious roots. As we become more conscious and aware, our subconscious often helps to bring the truth of this to our conscious awareness. And while this actually is a beautiful GIFT and opportunity, the associations and fears around what others will think, how we'll be perceived, what will happen take over and we relegate these back to the depths... feeling totally incongruent, icky and lost, we seek to be dissociated AGAIN.
But our true nature wants us to see it... wants us to heal... wants us to be safe and be loved. Our subconscious will follow suit with the dominant programming without value or judgement; it follows the existing networks. YET, the subconscious programs CAN be revised. We can unravel from our destructive and/or limiting stories to create new pathways of safety to open courageously and vulnerably into greater freedom.
When we allow ourselves to be vulnerable we allow ourselves to GROW.
Stepping into a new career path after years of feeling stuck, it was essential for me to feel vulnerable… to reach out, to make requests, to move through my own resistance by seeing myself in ways that were not presently fully available. I had to imagine the self I was becoming and start to act as she would (eeks! Vulnerability alert!). Comfortable? Not entirely. BUT, the vision of my highest self, the intention of my goal, the desire and expectation of achieving my goal were all far greater than the current state of playing small. No, I was done with that… or… at the least, I was willing to see that part and begin to heal it to move forward with greater zeal in ways that didn’t shut that part down, but gave her a chance to trust me… that I could do this and she could learn to ease off.
As we learn to embrace uncertainty, we also learn to adapt to and dance with vulnerability… we begin to see it as a superpower… as an asset for moving through challenge and holding oneself up, which is truly our #1 responsibility, our primary call, our greatest purpose… to enhance our lives from within so we can do so out.
I get to witness and guide beautiful and bold individuals to dance with vulnerability in order to open into their best life. As my clients reconnect with their subconscious powerhouse of imagination, beliefs, stories, associations… they rediscover their innate power and take vulnerable moves to release perfectionism in order to grow, rooted in their true self. We can allow ourselves to FEEL the fear as we step into our highest vision. We discover a safer zone with the help of mindset shifts, the support of the subconscious mind, and intentional step by step daily action.
This week’s abundant awareness from a client:
Developing strategies and trusting the path as the emotions surface:
“When I felt that dark cloud of fear over my heart, ‘What have you done? What did you say?’ I met it with my highest self, ‘No. You spoke your truth. You will be ok. If this doesn’t work, it isn’t meant to be.’ I saw precisely how my emotions followed my mind.”
Ready to dance with vulnerability?
